What if..

As time goes, i see a reflection of myself in the mirror. Thinking.
What if life wasn't the way i had imagined.
What if i already had that life.
What if i might never have it.
So many questions. Yet so little answers. And yet i see signs that brought forth a cause. A cause which rely on me. Something that does have to do with me. At a point i realise that i could be.
Imagining myself,at the most, i fear life could be not more than a rainfall. I seek joy and love. And never found it. But what if joy and love seek me? And i had failed to be reached?
Ultimately we are all deadman. But it is by death that we shall live and not by living we shall die. It is indeed a matter of oppinion.
But the Question of all. The saddest part to hear is..
..WHAT IF..