How things work?

A lot of things have change. I didn't seem to recall anything that hasn't seem to be right. By god i have tried every thing from my everything i could possibly do. But truth be told the things i tried in utmost weird way seems to be wrong. My desires are drained. My hopes long gone. Despite the fact that my life is not even alive, strange things how things are sorted out. I have asked father of things. Fortunately not to my understanding, he has left me aside. My soul is drained and dried. And evermore have i tried to find reason to the cause of which my cause of life has cause of existence.